Oh My Buddha !

Yesterday when I pass by the Buddhist centre(purposely) a guy which are also passing by the main door is looking at me. After a few seconds I greeted “Ah Mi Tuo Fo!” then the guy also replied then say ”c'mon in, got a talk going on”. So there I went in hearing the story of special people’s life path in obtaining greatness.

These two days, I see ah bing mood like no good. Don’t know whether he will leave me also? Suddenly I miss my paternal grandmother, although I very little see her. I think I want to go find her. She must be with my paternal grandfather now which I never meet. Come to think of it, I got quite a bunch of relative on the other side already. So if I go pay a visit, I won’t be alone.

My whole life now is hanging on one sentence only. Got it in my alpha year. Because of that, I cant die. Not until I have the ability to repay my dept. Brah brah brahhh….. I am scribbling, mumbling, mind sailing away~

I scare if I went to the counselor again, I would cry there again.

Pearls of tear rolled down my chin. People smile and laugh when they are happy. People cry when they are sad. Eating sweet can improve mood? Not working now.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,

I find myself trying to stay by the phone,

'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot,

workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you,

But I keep on thinking,

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

Please come back home...