Wheel of fortune

Today my life took a turn. Don’t know to the better or worse. My mind is like the Vatican vault, so much I gathered 23 years of my pathetic life. A big portion of it I have shared with noel. My desperate need for information has caused me trouble and so for my mother, brother, neighbor and now my friend. No matter who is right or who is wrong, the facts is that I have caused injury to peoples feeling, I can’t repay enough from this life. If cutting my life short can somehow patch things up a little, just a little, I would be glad to do so. "Sorry" is just a word, but sometimes it means a lot. But if the word is inadequate, changes shall take place. Everything happens for a reason, so one shall not cry over spilled milk. Everybody strive to live, those who don’t has already dead. But my way of fitting into this society is somewhat different and sometimes is hard to be comprehended. Previously I think I can die easily, but after completing my mindset from other people way of thinking, I have changed. For survival, I will gamble, I will strive my living by eliminating other from the picture first. However, I am so tired now. What I’m experiencing, what my fate has planed for me and what I want to be is all different. Guess I just have to see hope in all things, without hope, none survived.

p.s- picture is a card from the tarot deck, means life is like a wheel. Nobody stay on top forever, or forever at the bottom. A change is inevitable however the interpretion depends on ones view point.