Raining

Yay~ tomorrow got erhu class, has been waiting for more than a month already for the second class. Cant wait to master an instrument.

Lately I am also busy finding computer hardware, going to upgrade my computer. ;) after upgrade, going to sell off my old stuff also. Wa.. busy busy.

Even before sleep I got program, reading the bible. It is a generous gift from my ex-housemate. Very thankful to him now. Miss him very much. The bible is NIV translation, so, spare me the literature of King James. :)

Changes

After my major depression in the last semester, my feelings towards something have been corrected a bit. Now when I surf for dead people picture, I actually got feel a bit sick.

Amie

Nothing unusual, nothing strange,
close to nothing at all.
The same old scenario, the same old rain,
and there's no explosions here.
Then something unusual, something strange
comes from nothing at all.
I saw a spaceship, fly by your window,
did you see it disappear?

nothing unusual, nothing's changed,
just a little older that's all,
you know when you've found it, there's something I’ve learned,
'cause you feel it when they take it away, hey hey hey.

but I’m not a miracle and you're not a saint,
just another soldier on a road to nowhere.
amie come sit on my wall & read me a story of old,
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century,
brings a change for you and me.

Love of__________God.

I started to loose interest in my friends. Probably would stop contacting Stan. This is exactly the opposite what the counselor wants me to do. He wants me to be more proactive in contacting my friends. But I can’t see anybody who even cares. T.T.

Maybe I am going back to the church for help. Desperate. sad.

Hungry Ghost Festival

Today super tired. Yesterday sleep at 4am, today lab at 9am and class till 7pm. I wonder when I am going to do what the counselor tell me.

Yesterday went to temple there got ghost festival prayer. Later I am laughing back home because suddenly I realize my joss stick is not enough to distribute among all the ghost food. @.@

Holiday lor~

Today headache whole day. Nap for a while, I end up waking up dizzy like drunk. I saw fate again. Present not future or past.

Holiday, want to go home. Have to stay until Monday :(

Hallelujah, amen.

I went to the Lutheran church nearby my house last Sunday. I get two books written in Chinese =_=”. The church is also run by people, people is not perfect. Common human trait? More said than done.

Have love? Don’t have love? That is the topic for that day. Are you willing to share your love from god with someone who lives on the street or people who does not dress or act normally? In other words, people that is not as fortunate as you.

Whether its nature, nurture or choice, hope is offered like piece of expensive merchandise. Don’t take it up if you are not prepared or cannot afford to sacrifice. The one who need it is you, not us. Sounds harsh but that are the way to do it.

Probably they will lend me a hearing ear? Should I try? I think most probably I will. Friends? I can’t afford to lose anymore friends. The price to trust a friend is too big.