Left, Right, Left, Right...

Today went joging~ joging~ joging~~ :) lately my body is aching all over, so I went jogging with Kok Meng. Initially I was finding Adrian but he is preoccupied with his midterm tomorrow. So, just left two of us went jogging.

First, we sort of warm up walking to my house so that I can change my pants and sport shoes, the next thing, there is a guy spraying DDT fog went pass my house. Before I could inhale more of that noxious stuff, we jog to the other side of the housing estate where borders the paddy field.

Then we jog to the Chinese cemetery and stop by the temple there to briefly pay our respect. After a few round around the housing area, we head back to home. We had a good workout.

Now, a short rest after my dinner, I “should” be studying too for my midterm on Thursday. But I doubt my enthusiasm to study. Benkyo~ benkyo~~!!!

sigh

I know, he knows and God knows I’m innocent in this matter, and yet, I am willing to apologize. But some idiot inconsiderate fucker who so called “friend” always take what he assumes, to be the whole truth, the only truth and nothing but the truth. I stay away from him to avoid him from evil mouth of our colleague, but he also took this as a week sign and ever since our friendship is never be the same. I am devastated. He is the earliest closer friend I had in MMU.

When human see someone in trouble, people always have a helping intention because that is the nature and instinct of Homo sapiens and a reasonable man. Aside of being a human and a friend, you really can’t be a little more understanding? Try put yourself in my shoe and what will you feel? Oh I’m sorry, you are not human, can’t expect you to understand right? You are so certain what I am thinking and what I did that you MUST be GOD himself!!

A friendship has turn sour, and I’m going to scavenge it. the picture has little to relate to this matter but this problem reminds me of my feelings back then.

good site;

warning! death pic
http://forum.ogrish.com/showpost.php?p=2036945&postcount=4

:(

No kindergarten friend; discrimination, confusion, humiliation, and outcasted primary school life. Where are friends in secondary school? And so lonely life in the university. I live without family love or even knowing there is such a thing for 20 of my 24 years of my life. Who even cares if I die tomorrow?

Why?

I need antidepressants.